The Learning Curve

I'll have to admit I'm feeling a little overwhelmed this week, and I could sure use an extra dose of grace in my spirit. We’re starting to feel the ache of the good-byes as we get our house ready to sell. Our house is a big thing to give up...we bought it together when we were just 21 years old and about to be married. Both children were carried home here...took their first steps here, and this is the last place I saw my mom before she died. We have cursed this house I don't know how many times for the shoddy repair jobs the previous owners did, and now we realize that we too have had to fix it with little means and experience, and now we are working hard to spiff it up to sell it. It's just a thing, and the house won't miss us, but we will miss the house...the home. It's the first good-bye.
There's so much to do in selling the house, doing missions stuff, and living regular life, that sometimes I get stuck, and I just want to sit and do nothing (does that make sense)? Everything now is a learning process. I'm actually not very good at having to learn new things...I like being knowledgeable about things, but I don't like the work involved with learning (weird, I know, but that's how I am). So, I'm trying to dig in and tell myself to keep moving and working even when I want to stop and go back to where I know the essentials already...know what I mean? The learning curve will be so much bigger in Peru, so I’m thankful for the slow beginning so I can get used to being constantly learning again.
So I pray for serenity, and all that comes with the well-known prayer, “God grant me the serenity….” I am so excited for the winds of change, I pray to become a willing vessel in the process of making it happen. Mostly, I just plain need to get up and get to WORK, and I need God’s grace and discipline to get me moving.

Transparently Yours,
Gillian